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Thanksgiving eve

Wednesday, November 25th, 2009

In my family, it is tradition on Thanksgiving to sit and contemplate for a moment what and who I am thankful for. I remember going around the dining room table loaded with enough food for 20 people and each person sharing their thoughts.

I’m a little on the emotional side (I know, this is the revelation of 2009!) and I often reflect on very personal and very deep things that I am thankful for. It makes me tear up.

However, I’ve been tearing up a lot lately and kind of don’t want to do it again here in front of everyone, so here’s my “fun” list of what I’m thankful for:

  • Tanner and his sweet (yet slightly stupid) disposition.
  • Jasper and the way his nose runs when he purrs.
  • Justice and his constant need for (my) attention.
  • Merlin and the way he tells me it’s time to snuggle with his insistent meows.
  • Banana and The Chef’s kitty (who is staying at our house) and the way she purrs and greets me when I go into the room.
  • A day off work to go to yoga and Zumba and watch the Broncos take on the Giants (oh boy!).
  • A coupon Bellabeno sent me to go hog wild on sporting goods tomorrow.
  • The fact that I don’t get into Black Friday shopping.
  • Sleeping in on days of the week I usually don’t.
  • Invitations from friends to join them for turkey and the trimmings.
  • Our (home) phone plan being unlimited so I can call folks tomorrow and chat.
  • Peachiness planning to visit in February.
  • Gorgeous weather forecasts for the weekend so maybe we can go hiking!

On a slightly more serious note, I had my 4th blood test in 12 months done last week and got the results yesterday. My cholesterol is down enough that my doctor no longer has concerns about putting me on medication. Since I ate pizza and hamburgers at least 4 times during that period, the only thing I did last month that affected that number going down was work out 21 of 30 days.

This news, of course, fueled my motivation for this 25/30 day challenge I’m 8 days into. I’ve missed 2 days so far, which means I need to turn it up. There’s no boot camp this Friday or next Monday, so I have to come up with a plan.

On a much more serious note, if your (or your parent’s or spouse’s) last name is or was Chancellor, Matthesen, Finch, DePuy, Haile, or Paul, you are tops on my “Thankful” list.

Happy Thanksgiving!

25/30 update:
Monday, 11/23 - boot camp
Tuesday, 11/24 - nada
Wednesday, 11/25 - boot camp
Thursday, 11/26 - planning yoga and Zumba

One Moment

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

Earlier, I read an article a woman wrote about one moment she wishes she could redo. I do my best not to live life in my past. There is a lot in my past to get lost in, but there is so much more to come in my future. My present, however, is the biggest gift of all and where I try to spend most of my energy. I don’t spend time hashing over regrets and wishing for do-overs.

Even so, reading this article put a small lump in my throat. I can’t count how many times I was “too busy” to listen to something Mom, Grandpa, Dad, or Grandma P had to say. I remember the last conversation I had with Dad. He was upset about something and I just said, “yeah, yeah, okay, Dad. Have a good day; we’re headed to the beach.” I’ve forgiven myself for the way I brushed him off him that day, though it’s unlikely I’ll ever forget doing it.

I didn’t learn my lesson after we lost Dad and I couldn’t undo that conversation with him. I still do this sometimes. Sometimes, I get lost in the details someone is sharing with me and I start to gloss over. Sometimes, I feel like I’m hearing the same story again from someone and I start to tune out or I find a reason to end the conversation. Worse yet, I often don’t call the people I care about and I take way too long to return calls from people who’ve initiated contact with me.

I never do these things with malicious intent. Sometimes, I’m distracted by my own baggage. Sometimes, I’m exhausted. Embarrassingly, sometimes, I’m just distracted by something on TV. That’s so rude of me!

This article reminds me again to live in the present, to listen when someone has something to share, and to cherish the gift others give me by sharing pieces of their lives.

Here is my apology to everyone I’ve done these things to. To those of you who’ve felt slighted, ignored, or unimportant during a conversation with me, I am sorry. I don’t know how to make up for that, except to stop doing it. I promise, when we are in a conversation with each other, to remain present. I promise to tell you if I can’t be present for some reason.

And I promise to call Grandma F more often.

(If the link to the article didn’t work for you, copy and paste this address into the address bar in your web browser: http://www.cnn.com/2009/LIVING/personal/10/23/o.redo.one.moment/index.html?iref=mpstoryview)

Ameriprise Auto & Home Insurance

Wednesday, March 11th, 2009

We had Allstate before we switched to Ameriprise (through Costco) and were perfectly happy. We never had a claim, so we never “tested” our agent or the company as a whole. We switched to Costco’s insurance program purely for the monthly savings. We saved between $100 and $200 per six-month period on our auto policy (3 vehicles at the time of our switch) and something crazy like $300-$500 per year on our homeowner’s policy (we still lived in Colorado at the time). That savings more than made up for the $50 annual membership fee to belong to Costco. We had some body work done on the car just over 3 years ago and they were great in that situation too. Our representatives Kristina K and Ben K have been extremely helpful and patient and just a pleasure to deal with through this whole mess.

 

If you’d like to learn more about Ameriprise through Costco, you can visit a Costco warehouse and pick up a pamphlet, call Ameriprise directly at 888.404.5365 (reference number 8A8 to ensure the Costco member discount information), or read about them on this site: https://www14.ameriprise.com/AutoQuoteWebInter/AQFrontServlet?request_type=un_auth_init&PartnerID=COSTCO&RefID=11m-c3.

Chapter 4

Monday, March 9th, 2009

This morning, I got a phone call from the insurance company almost immediately after getting in to work. My claims rep that I’ve been talking to is very nice, patient, and very helpful. As much as this situation has been trying, I have enjoyed talking to her. My claim was referred to a total loss representative and he’s also been fantastic. If you’re shopping for car insurance, let me know. My company has been great.

The insurance company declared my car a total loss. Ugh. The repairs themselves were estimated to cost less than the value of the car, but the insurance company is concerned that it would be impossible to repair the damage safely. They’re concerned about part of the frame being bent (the shop says it’s not bent; it just looked that way from the pictures) and that repairs on the suspension would just never be the same. I did some research online and it looks like I could fight that decision if I wanted to. I could tell them I refuse to let them total it and I could keep the car. A lot of what I read said then they can make me pay the repairs myself and then refuse to insure it later on.

However, now that those thoughts are in my head, I’d always wonder. I don’t want to fight anything. I don’t want any negative energy out there at all. It just wouldn’t do anybody any good to do that. I do much better when I surround myself with positive energy.

* Besides, it would be really hard to sell or trade that car in after this kind of damage.

The settlement number they came up with is reasonable and will allow us enough to either put money down on another car or save up (along with the amount of the car payment) and come up with a really good down payment in a few months. We’re talking about being a 1 car family for awhile. It’ll work just fine most of the time.

Really, this situation has turned out in the best possible way, short of none of it happening at all. I’ve been able to spend more time in Denver and see more people than I usually do. I’ve been able to spend time with Sunshine and her kids, and with Bellabeno and her kids, time with Red, more time with O’Kerri, I’ve seen people I used to work with that I hadn’t seen in YEARS. I had dinner tonight with a colleague I really enjoy and don’t get to see much, tomorrow I have lunch with a former colleague I haven’t seen in a long long time and I’m looking forward to it. It’s all been a good time. Even with a canary yellow convertible. ;-)

In counting my blessings, I think a little about how bad it could have been. Not in that dramatic “woe is me I coulda been really hurt” way, but in the “wow, I’m pretty fortunate” way. I think about how little things have brought me here and how little things probably saved the accident itself from being much worse. I took the Volvo in to have the tires rotated a week before I left. They pointed out that the tires were bald, which is not a big deal on dry desert roads, but not good on mountain roads with possible snow and ice. So I replaced all 4 tires. I thought - briefly - about driving the Corolla on this trip. It’s a great car, but it has 180,000 miles on it and those tires would have to be replaced too. Jon nixed that idea. The Corolla sits a bit lower, so we might not have cleared that rock at all. We might have hit it right on the bumper and triggered the air bags, which Jon pointed out could have caused broken noses. One of my friends at work and I talked about how me driving the Volvo and it having new tires may well have saved Kerri and me from being hurt. The situation the way it’s turned out is an inconvenience and I’m going to miss the Volvo like crazy. But we’re not hurt. The Volvo is a thing. Things are replaceable. O’Kerri and I are not.

I am ready to be home, though. I love being in Colorado and I love my friends and colleagues here. And I miss Jon and the boys and our house and my own stuff. I’ve really missed working out with Troy these past two weeks. I have been sort of moderately active, but not enough. I need more!

O’Kerri and I should be back in Phoenix Saturday night. Yay! We’ll head to Pagosa Springs on Friday to return the rental and clean out the Volvo. Jon will meet us there (because a one-way rental from Pagosa to Phoenix is a pain in the keester) and drive us all home on Saturday. Whew!

So, if you think about it, please send us positive thoughts and prayers for a safe and easy drive to Pagosa Springs and then to Phoenix. Dry, clear roads, pleasant temperatures and patience for the drive. And a nice snugglefest with the boys when I get home.

Unplanned adventures update

Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009

On Monday morning, I spoke with my insurance company and the owner of the auto repair shop about the damage to the car. I learned about my coverage and deductible and all the information you read in your policy, but don’t necessarily process until you need it.

The short version of the story is the shop is waiting for an insurance adjuster to check out the car, take pictures, and discuss a repair estimate. My insurance covers a rental car for a specific period of time, so O’Kerri and I packed up a rental (it’s a canary yellow PT Cruiser convertible and it totally makes me giggle) and drove to Denver on Monday afternoon. She’s staying with one of her friends on the northwest side of town and I’m staying with Peachy & Mountain Man on the southwest side of town.

Until the insurance adjuster comes out, the shop’s hands are tied on starting any repairs. The owner (very nice man, by the way. If you ever need auto work done in southwestern Colorado, call Bill at Piedra Automotive) gave me a preliminary idea of the damage and it includes needing two new wheels and something about a bunch of lines being broken or cracked or leaking and transmission oil and he just kept listing things and I kept nodding, even though I started to have a little mental panic about the length of the list of damages. He sent pictures and I bent the heck out of two rims, punched a hole in something, tore out a piece of something else, and put a crazy hole in one of my brand new tires. He said it’s a possibility that they’ll total the car, which is upsetting, but I really am ok with that, because:

This situation is teaching me about patience and understanding, but mostly, it’s reinforcing my thoughts about finding the good in everything. I have every reason to be bummed out and annoyed and depressed but none of that compares with the many ways in which I am so fortunate.

Pagosa Springs is a beautiful town and we were able to spend a little bit of time there, enough time to know that I’d love to return for vacation. The people in Pagosa are so incredibly nice and helpful and just good people that I feel thankful to have met the folks who helped us out. I wish I remembered everyone’s names, but things have just happened so fast. For sure Reggie, Bill, Susan, Steve, and Jack at Piedra Automotive, the Colorado State Patrol officer who changed the tire for us, the woman at the front desk of the hotel who allowed us an early check in and late check out, Tammie at Boss Hogg’s restaurant … all of these people have just been good to O’Kerri and me.

And, that brings me to O’Kerri. She has every right to be mad at me. She could have gotten mad. She could have yelled at me about not avoiding the rock, about putting her life in danger, about making her miss her reservations and plans in Denver … the list goes on and on.

She hasn’t yelled at me once. She might be mad, but I don’t think so. She’s been incredibly understanding, patient, and a wonderful grounding presence. We both kept our cool pretty well while on the Pass Sunday and we’ve found things to laugh about and giggle about. She was even willing to drive with me again over the pass on Monday, barely 24 hours after the accident!! That’s saying something! Our friendship has surpassed another level. Man, go through a car accident and all the crazy stuff we’ve been going through with someone and your friendship is CEMENTED! I am very grateful for that. Kerri is an incredible woman.

Peachy and Mountain Man are also always amazing. They’ve opened their home to me, and offered whatever assistance they can provide in this situation. Tonight, I’m looking forward to their homemade spaghetti dinner - wahoo!!

All of my colleagues at work have been supportive and friendly and concerned. They’ve offered me a place to stay if Peachy & Mountain Man need to boot me to the curb for a while and even talked about letting me just spare bedroom surf for the next couple of weeks if I need it. They joked about all calling each other and working out a schedule “who can take Margi & O’Kerri for a few days?” and I don’t doubt that they’d all step up if I needed them to.

My Facebook friends and family have reached out with support, people are reading this blog and offering kind words of support. Jon hasn’t gotten mad at me, or at least he hasn’t told me he’s mad! I can see jokes about hitting rocks for the rest of our lives. This is payback for the ribbing I’ve been giving him about getting our S10 truck stuck on a (way bigger) rock one evening several years ago that led to some absolutely gorgeous sunset pictures (and didn’t involve a tow truck or our insurance company). ;-)

This is all coming together in the best way possible. Sure, it would have been better to miss all the expense and lost time, but honestly, I’m learning so much and seeing so much good that I’d have missed if I hadn’t hit that rock. I see the silver lining and I’m thankful for it all.

Update: the claims adjuster called and he will be out to check out the car “first thing” Wednesday, March4. Fingers crossed!!